"Smoke" by Ben Folds Five
Leaf by leaf and page by page
throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
throw this book away
Rip out the binding and tear the
glue
all of the grief we never even
knew
we had it all along
Now it's Smoke
The things we've written in it
never really happened
All the things we've written in it
never really happened
All the people come and
gone
never really lived
All the people come have gone
no one to forgive
Smoke
CHORUS
We will not write a new one
there will not be a new one
another one another one
here's and evening dark with
shame
throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the
blame
throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years and
here's a secret
no one will ever know the
reasons for the tears
they are smoke
CHORUS
Where do all the secrets live
they travel in the air
you can smell them when
they burn
they travel
Those who say the past is
not dead
can stop and smell the smoke
you keep saying the past is
not dead
well stop and smell the smoke
you keep on saying the past is
not even past and
you keep on saying
we are, Smoke
throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
throw this book away
Rip out the binding and tear the
glue
all of the grief we never even
knew
we had it all along
Now it's Smoke
The things we've written in it
never really happened
All the things we've written in it
never really happened
All the people come and
gone
never really lived
All the people come have gone
no one to forgive
Smoke
CHORUS
We will not write a new one
there will not be a new one
another one another one
here's and evening dark with
shame
throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the
blame
throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years and
here's a secret
no one will ever know the
reasons for the tears
they are smoke
CHORUS
Where do all the secrets live
they travel in the air
you can smell them when
they burn
they travel
Those who say the past is
not dead
can stop and smell the smoke
you keep saying the past is
not dead
well stop and smell the smoke
you keep on saying the past is
not even past and
you keep on saying
we are, Smoke
Recently I have been faced with having to deal with some things that I did last semester that really hurt me on so many levels. Not only have I been having to deal with the regret I have for having done these things, but I am also having to deal with the undenyable fact that certain people, people I thought were my best friends & could trust, talking about all of it behind my back. A few days ago, before I moved back up to school, I had my brother make me a CD of all the Ben Folds Five songs I like & the song above just fits sooooo perfectly with what I have been feeling about the whole situation! The past is the past, whether it be 2 weeks ago or 2 years ago, it's still the past! In my situation of my last semester, I deem all of it as being the past because I no longer have anything to do with those things nor do I struggle with them being out of my life! I know that my God has forgiven me for falling short of His glory in the sins that I committed last semester & for me that's all I need! I do not care what other people think about my past or how it may have caused them to view me differently than before, all I care about is what God thinks about me! I do not need nor desire the approval of man, I desire the love that God has lavished on me despite the hurt I have caused Him. I don't like that my friends deemed it their place to talk about my life behind my back nor do I like them judging me for the things I have chosen to do with my life because I do not need acceptance or approval from them! All I would like to say to them is this: while you were busy gossiping about my life, things I shared with you in private & trusted you to keep private, have been burnt & thrown away!
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