40 Random Facts About ME

1. Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
   no
2. How old were you when you moved out of your parents' house?
   I was 18 when I went to college 5 hours away from home & I lived on my own in the dorms. When I graduated in December, I returned home & have lived with my parents ever since. I didn't mind living with them in the beginning, but now they're really starting to get on my nerves, especially my mom! My mom has the best intentions & wants only the best for me, but gosh she is all up in my business & it gets annoying!
3. Who do you miss right now?
   I miss a lot of people. It sounds crazy, but I miss Nick right now! Here lately I want to spend all the time I can get with him! I love him sooo much! He is the best friend & greatest friend I will EVER have here on Earth! And these days I feel like I'm falling head over heels in love with him all over again. I also miss a lot of friends from Western, like I miss Katie Gibson, I miss Abby Palmer, I miss Bethany.
4. Are you drinking anything?
   nope
5. Do you like beer? If so, what one?
   I hate beer, but I like other drinks...
6. Do you have any weapons for personal protection?
   nope
7. Do you believe "Once a cheater, always a cheater"?
   Well it's hard to say. I tend to think yes more times than not, however I know that only certain situations cause someone to cheat once & then they never do it again or they change their ways. Like I said, more times than not, once a cheater, always a cheater is the case.
8. Have you ever ran away from home?
   no
9. Are you listening to music?
   nope
10. Do you take your daily vitamins?
    Iuse to when I was in college. I need to get back to doing that....
11. What color is your vehicle?
    gray
12. Where is your most ticklish spot?
    My stomach & my feet
13. Last thing you bought from Walgreens?
    I have no idea! I don't shop there too often. I probably got some candy or a card there.
14. How old are you parents?
    good question. My mom is about to be 48 & my dad is 56.
15. What did you last cook?
    I don't remember. I don't cook very often. Nick loves to cook & he's amazing at it so I just let him spoil me! I think the last thing I made was some oatmeal cookies for him about a week ago!
16. Do you have over 200 MySpace friends?
    no
17. Do you have a favorite number?
    umm not really. I kinda like the number 11.
18. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
    open
19. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
    no
20. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
    Out. I have to sleep always with 1 foot completely out of the covers while the rest of me is totally buddled up with the sheets tucked under my chin. I'm weird.
21. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
    hahah yeah! I was a senior in high school & my best friend, Jessica & I went around Raleigh taking some signs.
22. Do you have freckles?
    yeah, a few, just on my face & shoulders though.
23. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
    no
24. Have you ever peed in the woods?
    hahaha, I wouldn't say the woods. I peed on the Blue Ridge Parkway one time. It was late & it was foggy so no one could see me, otherwise I wouldn't have done it!
25. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
    no
26. What size is your bed?
    twin
27. Do you think it's ok for guys to wear pink?
    heck yeah! I love it when guys wear pink!
28. Do you still watch cartoons?
    sometimes
29. What do you drink with dinner?
    It depends on where I'm at & what I'm in the mood for. I usually order water when I'm eating out cause it's free. When I'm at home I usually drink something diet.
30. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
    Either honey mustard or barbecue sauce.
31. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
    Gosh there are so many! I could watch Big, Good Will Hunting, Office Space, Baby Boom, and Multiplicity till I'm blue in the face!
32. Have you seen the movie Powder?
    yes
33. Can you change the oil on a car?
    no. Nick has told me how to do it, but I haven't tried doing it.
34. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
    no
35. Ran out of gas?
    no
36. Can you curl your tongue?
    yes
37. Ever won a spelling bee?
    no
38. Ever been in love?
    yes
39. Ever won a contest?
    no
40. What type of woman/man do you like?
    I like a guy who is honest & faithful no matter what. I want someone who can make me laugh even when I've had the worst day. I have to be able to share things with him, whether it's my opinion or my food! He has to be someone who can easily communicate with me & someone who can feel like he can be himself around me. I love a guy who has dreams & goals and desires to be successful in life. I need to be able to trust him in every way and with anything! I need someone who can make me feel safe & protected. There are so many more things I could list, but all I need to tell you is, I have found all these qualities in Nick & I can't wait to spend the rest of my life looking at his face!!!!

How long do I have to wait?

My life is becoming more difficult & I'm even more frustrated than ever before! Since graduation I have had about 6 interviews with 6 different agencies. From the 6 interviews I have only gotten 1 rejection letter in the mail. I have continued to apply for jobs every week & I still have not received any job offers. I still feel limited in my choices of applying for jobs since I don't have my own car. I am also still very frustrated at the amount of jobs that are available in this area that I meet the job requirements for. I'm beginning to think that I will not get a job in my field until I get my masters degree. It upsets me when I look at all my friends who just graduated in December or last week & they all have jobs! I would love to get the job with Disabilities Determination Services because I could continue to learn about mental illnesses and physical disabilities while still helping people receive the financial means they need to sustain living. I cannot believe I still don't have a job, it's ridiculous! To have a college degree & have no job, it just doesn't make any sense!

Changing subjects, Nick graduated on May 10th! The weekend before his graduation, we moved him into his new apartment in Morrisville. During the week before his graduation I helped him unpack, get the furniture he needed, and settle into his new place. One day I surprised him by taking him to Bond Community Park in Cary & we had a nice picnic lunch in the shade. His graduation was wonderful! I was so excited when the day finally came that I about knocked Nick over when I ran up to him right after the ceremony was over! I felt so happy & proud of him that day that I was extremely exhausted by the end of the day! I thank God for allowing me to be a part of this very big, exciting chapter in Nick's life! I will never forget the hard work Nick put into his last semester of college nor the excitement I felt on his graduation day! I'm even more excited for him about the opportunities & experiences he's gonna have at his new job at Sony Ericsson! I feel so blessed to be with someone who knows how to work hard & reach his dreams no matter what it takes!

I never knew that

Tonight I realized something about myself that I constantly do & I hadn't realized how often I do it & how much it bothers me until tonight. Writing about this will give you a real intimate look at my life, but I'm not too worried about being so open about it because I don't think many people read my blog! Anyways enough rambling, time to get stress! So I realized tonight that I'm constantly telling people about relationship issues I'm having & then when they give me advice, I get mad at them for trying to tell me what to do in my relationship! And just so we're clear, when I say "relationship," I'm not just referring to Nick, I'm referring to any relationship I have where there's issues. I'm someone who can handle being told what to do, I can deal with someone who's older or wiser than me giving me orders, but I cannot stand being told what to do when it comes to my relationships! I will give you this, I do occasionally call up a close friend of mine & ask their advice, even on relationship stuff, however, if I don't ask for advice then I don't want it! I'm not venting about this so that those who read this blog can change their ways & not give me advice when I don't ask for it, no that's not my purpose at all in writing this. The problem rest with me. In the last few weeks I've realized that when you discuss things with people, no matter what it is, you lose some control. For example, let's say that I discuss my opinion about underage drinking with my mom & the next day she goes to work & tells 1 of her co-workers my opinion & how our opinions differ, well I brought that on myself. When I choose to share my opinion or my thoughts I lose some degree of control. So tonight I realized that when I discuss the issues I'm having in a relationship to someone & they tell me what to do, I shouldn't get mad because I brought it on myself. It's like when you were a kid & you complained to your mom about how mean the kids were to you on the bus, you were a fool to think that your mom wouldn't do or say anything about it! My mom would usually vent to my dad about it & then reassure me or advice me on how to handle the situation. I guess what I'm getting at is that from now on, I'm going to try really hard to watch what I say so that I don't repeatedly find myself getting frustration & anger over this! I hope all this has made sense. Hit me up with any thoughts you might have!

January till now...

Nick is graduating in less than 12 days from now!!! I have been waiting for May 10th ever since he started his last semester! It has been a really tough 4 months for me, however I know it's been even harder on him than on me. I am so incredibly proud of him! At the start of this semester I had no clue as to how Nick was going to act as a student. I didn't know how he studies, how he handles the stresses & pressures of school, how he does research papers, I didn't know anything about him as a student. Well let me just say, it was really difficult at first for me to learn these things, let alone adjust to them! In the beginning I would get really frustrated when Nick would send me home early because he wanted to start working on an assignment 3 days before it was due! It took about 2 months for me to really grasp how Nick is as a student. I can tell you now that Nick is extremely dedicated to his college career & he sees it as just that, a career, a full-time job. In learning more about Nick, I got to see just how much of a hard worker he really is & I love that about him!!! Plenty of times throughout this semester I saw him get frustrated & his determination to keep trying & his willingliness to try out new solutions really made me admire him. Thankfully, I didn't really have a tough last semester of college, but had I had the work Nick had to do this semester, I probably would have quit! I'm extremely glad that I was able to be around Nick during this stressful time because it brought us closer together & it also challenged us day-to-day on an individual basis. I will be beyond excited when May 10th finally gets here, but in the meantime, I'm perfectly content watching Nick continue to grow!

Update

I have been crazy busy lately. I have been busy wrapped up in applying for jobs & helping Nick make arrangements for after graduation. This past Friday I went up to Kernersville with Nick to spend some time with his family and then we went to a friend of ours' wedding on Saturday in Asheboro. Then today I took a test for a job position as a Disabilities Determination Specialist Traniee with the NC Department of Human Services. The test was 34 questions long and we had 50 minutes to complete it. It was a really stinkin hard test & when I say hard I mean it was like taking the SATs all over again!!! Well they graded the test right there & I passed! After I got over being shocked, I picked a day & time to have my interview! I would love it if I got this job because I could become more knowledgeable about physical and mental disabilities and help people in my community gain the support they need. I also have another interview set up for this week! It's seems like things are FINALLY turning around for me! I don't know if I'll get any offers from either agency, but nevertheless I am thrilled just knowing it's a possibility!

There's your update on my life! Y'all come back now, you hear?!! Name that TV show!

It's NOT the End of the World...

Believe it or not, not having a cell phone has it's benefits & rewards! Benefit #1: People I don't wanna talk to can't get in touch with me, unless it's via the Internet. Benefit #2: I can be late to things! Whenever I show up late to meet someone (which is not likely to happen), I can just use the excuse, "oh, I woulda called, but no cell phone." Benefit #3: When I'm with a huge group of people & a cell phone rings, I don't have to worry about whether it's mine or not. Benefit #4: Now when I go to the movies, I can ignore all those silly warnings about "silence your phone or pager." Benefit #5: I can really concentration on the road when I'm driving, no more distractions! Benefit #6: I can give my undivided attention to whoever I'm spending time with. Don't you hate it when you're in mid-sentence & your friend's cell phone rings & it totally ruins your train of thought?! The biggest reward I've seen so far in not having a cell phone, it's improved my relationship with Nick!!!! I know right, who woulda thought?!! I really like talking to Nick on AIM or Skype now because it allows me to multi-task! Not having my cell phone has also made us cherish the times we do get to talk to one another! I actually thought not having my phone was gonna cause more problems in our relationship, but it's actually made it 10 times better! I never woulda thought I could live without my cell phone, but I actually like not having one! I know, you're probably thinking, "how much longer will she like not having a cell phone?" I don't know the answer to that, but we'll see, I'll let you know!

Motivation

I think I'm finally frustrated enough about my current situation that I've become extremely motivated to find a job! I now spend the majority of my time looking on the Internet for jobs instead of playing around on facebook & myspace! I spend time thinking about what new words I can type in for a job search, how I can make my resume look better, & how I can make it to a fax machine before 5 o'clock! It's only Wednesday night & I've already applied for 4 jobs this week! I think that's pretty darn good! I never thought I'd say this, but I feel much better about myself because of my efforts to really really work hard at finding a job! Granted, I still think the whole process sucks! I just really wanna send out a massive message to everyone in college right now to tell them to do tons of internships or just 1 really long internship because you're going to need the experience on your resume if you hope to get a job in your field after graduation! Leave me with your comments!